This month has not been in favor to me. Everything (both bad and good) had just happened so unexpectedly. I was never prepared to meet them. I guess that's the beauty of life. Problems and happy times will just knock right through your door just like an unexpected guests. I know I have always reminded myself that "I AM A STRONG PERSON", but I think I was not that convincing at all. I have failed to believe the thought I want myself to be. I want to think about happy thoughts just like what Peter Pan told Windy and her company, but failed. How can I let those happy thoughts get through my veins? Too hard for me to do that. Perhaps, my body and soul are full of negative vibes.:(( Now there goes...IF ONLY . .blah blah blah.....
Ever since I was young, I was already exposed to life's cruelty. I know I was hurt, but was not that mindful at all because as long as I could play, everything's gone. But now, even if you wanted to forget it, you just can't. You need to solve it or else you'll be stuck to that problem for the rest of your life.
I always wonder why I was not that lucky like the others? Why at a very young age, was already exposed to different kinds of problems? Why even shouldered the biggest responsibilities of others? Why can't enjoy things others enjoy? My life is full of WHYs??? But then I realized, I shouldn't mourn about all those things, instead be thankful that it happened. It'll teach me if not great, greatest lessons.
Today, I tweeted this: giba'g gilukdo ang gisagubang nga mga suliran. paet aning kinabuhi sa pobre!
Tweeted it because I was so mad. I was mad at them because they throw everything to me. Can't they see it, I don't always have everything. Too sad to think they seem not to mind.
Then I got this: Those who mourn should be happy because they will be comforted- Matthew 5:4.
I was being reminded by God that I should not mourn for He will comfort me. I feel better now. Thank God for helping me remember that I am not alone.
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