when in doubt!

oh how i hate myself when i'm doubting. everything seems fake! i don't wanna believe everything i hear, i see and feel. what's the matter with me? i hate this feeling. i don't wanna feel this way. this is so bad. T T  : (

how can i not feel this? how can i avoid this?waaaaaaaah!

i'm acting too paranoid when i'm in doubt! i don't even know the reason why i doubt!tsktsk...oh LORD help me!

MANILA

i've always wanted to go to Manila and ride an airplane.  wish granted when i was asked to be with my manager and one of my co-workers for an exhibit  in SM MEGAMALL  for the Philippine Travel Mart (PTM). it was such a great blessing for me. who would've thought i would be able to go there for free....: )

my plane ticket

my first time and i was seated near the window!weeeee

WELCOME TO MANILA!

view from the top (hotel room)

the moment i arrived in manila i wasn't that amazed. yes! they have tall buildings and i mean really tall ones. the place was way too crowded, way too traffic and way too polluted. i don't wish to live in a place like that. i wanted to live in a place that's serene and have fresh air to breathe.

my first time in manila was such an unforgettable one. how can i forget it? due to my ever carelessness i lost my wallet. someone unzipped my bag and took my wallet without me noticing it! weird!huh?! i've got no idea how that stupid jerk stole it!tsktsks...i'm still thankful though that nothing bad happened to me. i arrived in cebu safe and sound and that jerk didn't include my digicam as well.  so, it only goes to show that he was only interested in my money! that jerk is so lucky to have my wallet. aside from that big amount he also has my picture!hahahaha...

that experience has taught me a lot. it taught me how to stay strong and how to fight the cruelty of life. it leaves a message that i should take extra careful all the time. there's no place for carelessness here. carelessness should be the last resort. be always aware!

i may lost a lot of money that time but it didn't make me depress at all.  as what my brother said " don't be too bothered of what's lost...it's just money you can find it. what's important you're safe."  my brother was so right! that's why when someone asked me how i am, i simply answered them "I'M GOOD!"

see, how GOOD i am?